like every every early morning…Apps Like Betterhelp… specifically on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have constantly drawn they’ve always been actually tough psychological days for me i don’t know what’s next i’m just gon na attempt this out i might hate it i do not understand i don’t really want to get a therapist i’ve constantly wanted to simply deal with my mental stuff without needing to get one since to me i simply um i simply do not want to have to go through all of this and i don’t wish to need to inform people all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i just don’t feel like doing all of this and i truly just wished to handle this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after nearly 30 years of trying so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i do not understand i’m just tired of handling this and like like i stated.