like every every single morning…Betterhelp Cigna… especially on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have always sucked they have actually always been actually tough mental days for me i don’t understand what’s next i’m just gon na try this out i might dislike it i do not know i do not truly wish to get a therapist i have actually always wished to simply deal with my mental things without having to get one since to me i simply um i simply do not want to have to go through all of this and i do not wish to have to tell individuals all of my things and simply go through all of this i just do not seem like doing all of this and i truly simply wanted to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after nearly thirty years of trying so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i don’t know i’m simply tired of dealing with this and like like i said.