like every every single early morning…Betterhelp Lpgp… particularly on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually constantly sucked they’ve always been actually difficult mental days for me i don’t understand what’s next i’m simply gon na try this out i may dislike it i do not understand i do not actually want to get a therapist i’ve always wished to simply deal with my psychological things without needing to get one since to me i simply um i just don’t want to need to go through all of this and i do not want to need to tell people all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i just don’t seem like doing all of this and i actually just wanted to handle this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after almost 30 years of trying so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i do not know i’m simply tired of dealing with this and like like i said.