like every every early morning…Betterhelp Medicare… particularly on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually constantly drawn they have actually constantly been actually hard psychological days for me i do not know what’s next i’m simply gon na try this out i may dislike it i do not know i do not truly want to get a therapist i have actually always wished to simply handle my psychological stuff without needing to get one due to the fact that to me i just um i just do not want to have to go through all of this and i do not wish to have to tell people all of my things and simply go through all of this i simply do not seem like doing all of this and i truly simply wished to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after nearly 30 years of trying so we’re gon na enter that today uh i do not know i’m just tired of handling this and like like i said.