like every every single early morning…Betterhelp Psychiatrist… specifically on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually always drawn they have actually always been actually difficult psychological days for me i do not understand what’s next i’m just gon na try this out i may hate it i don’t understand i don’t actually wish to get a therapist i have actually constantly wished to just handle my mental stuff without needing to get one due to the fact that to me i simply um i simply don’t want to have to go through all of this and i don’t wish to have to tell people all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i just don’t seem like doing all of this and i actually just wanted to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after almost 30 years of trying so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i don’t understand i’m just tired of dealing with this and like like i stated.