like every every morning…Betterhelp Therapist Application… especially on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have always drawn they have actually always been really hard mental days for me i don’t understand what’s next i’m simply gon na try this out i might hate it i do not understand i don’t truly wish to get a therapist i have actually constantly wanted to just deal with my psychological stuff without having to get one because to me i just um i simply don’t wish to need to go through all of this and i don’t wish to need to tell people all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i simply do not seem like doing all of this and i really simply wished to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after practically 30 years of trying so we’re gon na enter that today uh i do not know i’m just tired of handling this and like like i stated.