like every every early morning…Betterhelp Vision… specifically on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually constantly drawn they’ve constantly been really hard psychological days for me i don’t understand what’s next i’m just gon na attempt this out i may hate it i don’t know i don’t actually wish to get a therapist i have actually always wanted to simply handle my mental stuff without having to get one due to the fact that to me i simply um i just don’t wish to have to go through all of this and i don’t want to need to inform individuals all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i simply do not seem like doing all of this and i actually just wanted to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after nearly thirty years of trying so we’re gon na enter that today uh i don’t know i’m simply tired of dealing with this and like like i said.