like every every single morning…Code For Betterhelp… especially on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have constantly drawn they’ve always been actually difficult psychological days for me i don’t understand what’s next i’m just gon na try this out i might dislike it i don’t know i do not actually want to get a therapist i’ve always wanted to just handle my mental stuff without having to get one because to me i just um i simply do not wish to need to go through all of this and i do not wish to need to inform individuals all of my things and just go through all of this i just don’t feel like doing all of this and i truly simply wanted to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after practically 30 years of attempting so we’re gon na enter that today uh i don’t understand i’m simply tired of handling this and like like i said.