like every every morning…Cody Ko Betterhelp… particularly on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have constantly drawn they have actually always been really tough psychological days for me i do not know what’s next i’m just gon na try this out i might hate it i don’t understand i do not really wish to get a therapist i’ve always wished to just handle my mental stuff without having to get one because to me i just um i simply don’t wish to need to go through all of this and i don’t wish to need to inform people all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i simply do not seem like doing all of this and i actually just wanted to handle this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after nearly 30 years of attempting so we’re gon na enter that today uh i do not understand i’m just tired of handling this and like like i said.