like every every early morning…H3H3 Betterhelp Pewdiepie… specifically on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually constantly drawn they have actually constantly been actually hard mental days for me i do not know what’s next i’m just gon na attempt this out i may dislike it i do not understand i don’t really want to get a therapist i’ve always wanted to just handle my mental things without needing to get one due to the fact that to me i simply um i simply do not wish to need to go through all of this and i don’t want to need to tell people all of my stuff and simply go through all of this i simply do not feel like doing all of this and i truly simply wished to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after practically thirty years of trying so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i don’t know i’m simply tired of handling this and like like i said.