like every every early morning…Http Www.Betterhelp.Com Mental… especially on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have always drawn they have actually always been actually difficult psychological days for me i do not know what’s next i’m simply gon na attempt this out i may hate it i do not know i do not truly wish to get a therapist i have actually always wished to simply handle my mental things without needing to get one since to me i simply um i just do not want to have to go through all of this and i do not wish to have to inform people all of my things and simply go through all of this i simply don’t seem like doing all of this and i truly simply wished to handle this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after practically 30 years of attempting so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i don’t understand i’m simply tired of dealing with this and like like i said.