like every every early morning…Robert Bowman Betterhelp… especially on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually always sucked they’ve constantly been really difficult mental days for me i do not understand what’s next i’m just gon na attempt this out i might dislike it i do not understand i don’t really want to get a therapist i have actually constantly wanted to simply deal with my psychological stuff without needing to get one because to me i just um i simply don’t want to need to go through all of this and i do not wish to have to tell individuals all of my things and simply go through all of this i simply do not seem like doing all of this and i really simply wanted to handle this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after practically thirty years of attempting so we’re gon na get into that today uh i do not know i’m simply tired of dealing with this and like like i stated.