like every every single morning…Sexplanations Betterhelp… specifically on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually always sucked they have actually always been truly difficult mental days for me i don’t understand what’s next i’m just gon na try this out i may hate it i do not know i don’t really wish to get a therapist i’ve constantly wanted to simply handle my mental stuff without needing to get one since to me i simply um i simply do not want to have to go through all of this and i don’t wish to have to tell people all of my stuff and just go through all of this i just don’t feel like doing all of this and i really simply wished to manage this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after nearly thirty years of trying so we’re gon na enter into that today uh i do not know i’m just tired of dealing with this and like like i said.